Sunday, January 23, 2011

Meanderings of a Mad Wild Witch (or how insane can you get??)

I have been wondering if I will EVER understand the workings of other humans... 

Sometimes I totally get them... click and understand, but other times I am bewildered, befuddled, and bemused to say the least.  

Example one:  Being told to be "true to one's own truth, to speak your truth", then when one does, one gets lambasted and their feelings belittled and even had fierce anger aimed at them.   Now, please  understand, this "truth" in no way belittled another, nor cursed, nor denied the rights or values of others who reacted so harshly.  

Example two:  In a group where there is a pledge of dedication made, promise of aid to be given, then a percentage of these hardly ever show up, do not attempt to get to know the others, only pop in once and a while and say "HI" and little else, but when a major discussion is enjoined, they speak out like they have been fully participating and because they go along with the mainstream, are treated as if they are "bosom buddies" whilst the few voices who disagree, but who have been there day in and day out are treated as if they are clueless strangers and in some way causing great harm because they dare to do example one.  

Is it a "mob mentality"?  Or a form of hero worship, where the group leader is the end all and be all and anyone who disagrees is "bad" and all those who agree are "good" ?  Or just plain toadying for position? As small children do for a teacher, or bully??? Oh wait, I think I misspoke, I don't think people ever grow out of doing these things unless they make a conscious effort too....

So, I conclude I must be mad, totally insane... because I wont give up my hope and belief in other humans.... I hope and believe in goodness in the hearts and minds of others, and in doing so, open myself up yet again to be heart broken.  True madness, insanity by definition is doing a thing over and over yet expecting a different outcome.  Proof, I must be insane....